Have you ever noticed...

when your life is at a really good point, it goes by incredibly fast? I was watering the plants outside, thinking how I couldn't believe that it's already August 20th. Summer flew by! Normally I would want summer to last as long as humanly possible but this is my first summer being a "grown-up". Now I have technically been an adult for 4 years now but until you work through your first summer, you don't know what I am talking about. Now don't get me wrong, while I was going to school I worked full-time during the summer. Yes, that is a grown-up thing to do but I always knew that in three months I would start school again and my hours would go down. Once you graduate and get a real, full-time job you underestimate your love of summer. Those three months are exactly like any other period in a year except for a certain kind of feeling you have. It never fails, summer always leads me to finding someone. This year was no different from the previous; I met someone.

Now I can be happy without a guy, despite what some people say. I went 16 years of my life before I got my first 'real' boyfriend and I was happy. I took a year break after that relationship and a 6 month break after the next. And 3 months after the next. So it seems the months in between have gone down but I am still perfectly content being single. So I met someone this summer. Okay, I met a few people this summer but I only invested my time in this one.

Now getting back to the blog topic, why is it when you are happy time goes by so fast? Is it that we are looking forward to the weekend or that we want to see our loved ones or that we aren't staring at the clock hating our job? Is it a little of all three? I, personally, think it's a combination. If you hate your job, you find yourself staring at the clock, anticipating the moment the second hand hits the 12. Your desperate attempt to make the clock go faster is an epic failure. Therefore time goes by slow 40 hours out of your week. If you don't want to see your loved ones, whether a significant other, friend or family, then what is the point of having time off? You could really enjoy being by yourself and maybe you are happy that way. I believe that people trick themselves into being happy when they are all alone. If you don't have anything to look forward to during the weekend then it's almost like you don't care that it's coming up. You are working towards something that doesn't mean anything to you. Why would time move forward fast when you have nothing to look forward to?

This a really weird point in my life. Being 22, a graduate and a full-time employee has been an interesting road. Last year at this time I was lost. I had a boyfriend that I was embarrassed and unhappy with, I was unemployed and completely lost. I had no direction whatsoever and had no concept of what being a graduate meant. Now I find myself successful and proud of where I have come. Maybe you find happiness when you find your true self. People have said that for as long as I can remember "love yourself and good will follow". But you know humans, they ultimately learn by doing, failure included. So yeah, I have heard that saying but I didn't understand what it meant until I experienced it. My life has really come together. My advice, to anyone who wants it, is to focus on yourself for once. Really... stop making others happy. Make yourself happy in who you are and good will follow.